I know what is right for myself is peace and the presence of those who respect and love me.
Tag: trauma
Sailing Through Rough Night Waters
Sleep is so important to my mental health, I’ve been going to bed just as soon as the sun goes down in the sky. These summer days that’s me going to bed at ten when the yawns become unending around nine. So this morning when I couldn’t go back to sleep after an hour of … Continue reading Sailing Through Rough Night Waters
Heartless Ole Me
August 9th 2022. That’s when I asked you to go to family therapy with me. Today it is February 17th 2024. December 7th 2023 is how long it took for you to decide it was worth it. You ask that question like you haven’t done everything you can to sabotage this. I asked you to … Continue reading Heartless Ole Me
It has been almost three weeks since I have gone to work. After keeping busy this whole time my brain can't do anything else except be right here. I haven't cooked a meal for myself. I can sometimes make myself leave the house for Taco Bell or a burger. I've tried to crochet the same … Continue reading
Survived Again
Wow, did this day start out as the absolute pits. My ten year old cat, Queenie ne' Princess, has taken to shitting right beside the litter boxes. Again. When she was young she never did such things however her brother, Dude, pissed on everything. So who really can tell who was pissing and shitting where, … Continue reading Survived Again
Time can do so much
These days I'm trying to listen to more music and read more books. I've never been very adventurous as a music appreciator. I need to wring every note of each individual drop of seratonin before I'm done with it. I need referential points of stimulus so I can evaluate myself against them like a calibration. … Continue reading Time can do so much
Useless Knowledge
For four weeks and three days I have tried to figure out what I did wrong. What I did that could possibly have warranted completely disregarding every guideline we had set for if things got bad in our marriage. Warranted disappearing without a word or explanation, without being willing to discuss for two weeks if … Continue reading Useless Knowledge
Queer Pandemic 