So here I am once again faced with the annual decision of whether to renew my domain name and registration. Undoubtedly I will because I remain existent with a lack of poverty stricken qualities to my life. Don’t misunderstand - we are not of noble means by any measure but can pay the bills and … Continue reading No Regerts
Binge-ing at first sight
My latest television addiction is Married at First Sight. The aspect of the arranged marriages is merely a gimmick to me : remove it and I'm still going to watch the show. It does leave one wondering however is one or more of these couples are under a placebo effect and were not matched based … Continue reading Binge-ing at first sight
Forward
One thing that gives me hope: After the 2016 election there was MASSIVE infighting on the left immediately. The need to assign blame the very next day seemed to be everywhere. There was no room for grief because we immediately started to blame each other. Maybe it was the fear. We blamed Hillary, we blamed … Continue reading Forward
Ripe Pile of Stimulus
I know what is right for myself is peace and the presence of those who respect and love me.
Churn
Really, when you give of yourself and things fall apart anyway you not only cannot take the blame but you stop looking for a place for blame at all.
Sailing Through Rough Night Waters
Sleep is so important to my mental health, I’ve been going to bed just as soon as the sun goes down in the sky. These summer days that’s me going to bed at ten when the yawns become unending around nine. So this morning when I couldn’t go back to sleep after an hour of … Continue reading Sailing Through Rough Night Waters
From the Vault06/14/2016
Yesterday Mom got me this journal. This morning a scheduler from a surgeon called me to set up an appointment. No one from my PCP's office had called me to tell me what the problem was or that there was one. I have nodules on my thyroid, (or maybe just A nodule) do we're going … Continue reading From the Vault06/14/2016
Heartless Ole Me
August 9th 2022. That’s when I asked you to go to family therapy with me. Today it is February 17th 2024. December 7th 2023 is how long it took for you to decide it was worth it. You ask that question like you haven’t done everything you can to sabotage this. I asked you to … Continue reading Heartless Ole Me
It has been almost three weeks since I have gone to work. After keeping busy this whole time my brain can't do anything else except be right here. I haven't cooked a meal for myself. I can sometimes make myself leave the house for Taco Bell or a burger. I've tried to crochet the same … Continue reading
Happy Birthday, Tim
They get to just walk away from everything they did to me. So I'm gonna do that too. I'm trying and working on it so hard.
Queer Pandemic 